smile baby : )

2005-10-13T16:25:00.000+08:00

YOYOYOOO :D

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2005-08-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

long time no update liaox.

today/i shall proudly present my experience on ear piercing..wahhaha
last thurs was a horrible day..was down since morning and didn't had the mood to do anything at all.then after schh, there wasn't any mep and they all wanted to go ah soh's house. and at first i didn't want to go..cos i want to go home and sleep and forget abt the whole thing.haha..then twin and jiemei threatened that if i dun go they also dun go..haish.so in the end i went.i kinda regret for gg in the beginning.but then after that we went pp to eat before gg to ah soh's house and so we ate kfc.after lunch, we went to shop arnd and we somehow stopped in front of 77th strt.haha.

and we went in to take a look.and i dunno why i asked abt the price of piercing ears and jiemei and bam persuaded me to pierce my ears.and jus nice nazyan was there too and she made me pierce.and jus nice tasia and weeling were there too...LOL..i was in a bad mood, i won't feel that much pain compared to when i was in good mood.so i pierced.

ever since that moment after i decided to pierce my ears, we made such a din in 77th strt.but i think the guy didn't mind.cos i think he was having fun piercing our ears, telling us jokes like: am i handsome? or i'm drawing a pig on ur ears or something.

oh yeah.his jokes were so humourous i didn't really understand wad he was trying to say but still laugh along. and so here comes the piercing part

the shop was empty then and i sat on the chair, one hand holding bam's hand and the other holding jiemei's hand.twin was scared and so she stood behind them..when the guy pierced, i closed my eyes shut.i seriously didnt expect it to be that pain and so i screamed.after i screamed, i opened my eyes.and tadaaa, there were so many ppl all of a sudden and jus nice julia came into the shop.

after he finished piercing both of my ears, trust me, i cun tahan ald. it's like so painful lar.after that i feel tears in my eyes..haha..yeah.i squeezed jiemei's hand so hard that she also cried i think.haha..at the end of piercing only left bam's hand on my hand..she's so calm sia..haha..

so after me it was twin's turn..and after she pierce, she said she was on her verge of tearingg...so this proves that ear piercing is very very painfull..wahahha

oh yeah.after that bam treated us to drinkss..

hehh.wad an interesting ear piercing epericen huh...i will nvr let this earhole close....i dun want to pierce again mna..wahaha

nid to go le.bbbbb..

2005-08-22T14:50:00.000+08:00

lol.i'm updating...after failing 3 subjects.i doubt i will get promoted i guess..lol.now in com lab.eating snicker bars...yummy.string starting at 3.lol. havent practise a shit yet.dun feel like gg sia..nid to go liaox.will update ltr.

2005-08-04T15:49:00.000+08:00

ARGGG..its the most embarassing moment today. I HATE IT!! oh shaks. i jus couldn;t control my emotions today. I HATE MS ANN. MISS AN[ YU SHALL GO AND DIE AND BE IN HELL FOREVER. YU SHALL DIE OF TOO MUCH FATNESS.CURSE U YU SUCKER. BITCH.$%#$#@#. i hate her man.why must she walk past.stupid bitch.idiot.fat woman.sucker.stupid ass. ITS NOT UR BUSINESS.YU DUN BE NOSEY U ASSHOLE. no wonder she cun get married.serve yu right.OH WAD?!?1.U ARE FRM RGS.yu are such a bimbo. u are disgracing rgs's face.okay.rachel soh wan yi is shouting.nid to go.i'll curse some more when i have time.ROOOARRR.

2005-07-27T18:31:00.000+08:00

LOL...yet another boring wednesday afternoon.had A math ca today.honestly speaking.its quite simple.jus that there's not enuff time and i couldn't recall things.lol. i rather i have nvr done those questions and then can blame teachers for setting such a hard paper.wahhaha.

haven't been updating for sucha long long long looonnngg time.i finally had the mood to update.yayy (:

life is horrible.so many things happened.running away is the best solution.wohoooo!

wadever

i'm getting pissed off with so many things recently.how i wished i could say it out loud.lol...

ermmm..i realised i'm stil slacking like a piece of shit. but wadever. if one day i feel like changing then i try to turn off my fucking slacking mode.

shit.arhhh..still havent master the art of hand sign.heh..gonna take me a century to learn it.

MODE : Bad Day by Daniel Powter

2005-07-13T14:50:00.000+08:00

周杰伦《一路向北》
后视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪
在车窗外面徘徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔着泪
街景在往后退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面全都是我不对
细数惭愧
我伤你几回
後视镜里的世界
越来越远的道别
你转身向背
侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追
竟听见你的泪
在车窗外面排徊
是我错失的机会
你站的方位
跟我中间隔著泪
街景一直在後退
你的崩溃在窗外零碎
我一路向北
离开有你的季节
你说你好累
已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹
过往的画面全都是我不对
细数惭愧
我伤你几回
我一路向北
离开有你的季节
方向盘周围
回转著我的後悔
我加速超越
却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧
我伤你几回
停止狼狈
就让错纯粹

2005-07-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

LOL

i seriously think i gonna fail so badly for geog.hahha.i only started studying yesterday.wadever i studied last week was already flushed out of my mind already.haha.before the test i can rmb quite some stuff.and i really have no idea why is it that when the test started i cun recall a single thing.omg.this sucks.seriously sucks.if i cun rmb anything for the test why did i even study in the first place?.ROARRRR!!!..

my failing memory.*

2005-07-05T11:40:00.000+08:00

it's A math lesson now..doing some heymath thing.i dun really understand wad they explained.so i seriously think heymath is a waste of momeny.why did the sch go and sign some stupid contract with them and everyone Has to take it.stuupid.

arhhgggg~!!!!!!!.I WANT TO CUT HAIR!!!!!!

i hate my stupid thick hair.i seriously want to cut it.but i know my mom will nvr allow me to. wadever.i seriously need to cut it.and get new frindge.man.i'm dying to cut hair!!!!

2005-06-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

woahoo..hyperness is back again.

2005-06-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

since today ain't a special day i shall blog..

today was jus like everyday.i dun want to feel as if its some special day.i hate to feeel that way.

so many things happened since this yr started.ohhlala.like wad twin says.one more yr to nc16 movies.hahas.

2005-06-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

today was the last day for mep camp.starting like want to die want to die like that.cos i really dun want to do wad musical.and that stupid brown shirt guy who gave us a speech is like *hmph* NO COMMENTS.he's a lil fat and he keeps touching his chest whenever he talk.so...whenever he talks, we will have little discussions.hahahs.thats so mean.but yeahh.cun help it lah.he's attracting too much attention.hahas. then hmmm.the whole morning was rehearsal. and i had to wear the dunman high uniform.which is SO SO HOT.i was sweating like shit.and i din put deodrant.so i SMELL.yeahh. the skirt was horrible.cos its very thick and LONG.huishan is tall mah.and i have to fold the stupid skirt for like dunno how many timessss..hahahs.

during rehearsal everything was fine, until the performance. we din put up our best performance and we got dunno wad best coordination group.but i thought we could have done better,nvm abt the prize.hahahs. and that RI guy was flirting with natalie.so funny man.i was happily observing them.muahhaas. and twin wanted me to take taxi with her.so i took taxi with her to city hall which then i took only 15 min to go home.wow.so fast man.hahhas.thanks twin for the ride:).hahas.

its like only 2 days but it seems to be even longer than that.that's how torturing the camp is. but today dun seem to be that horrible.hahahs.

2005-05-31T20:42:00.000+08:00

today's MEP camp was bulllshit.dunno learn wad musical thing.haish.bullshit lah.i was like dozing off every second.cos i slept like 2 last night.muahahs.went st nicks in the morning and its like wad.so dam BIG.if u are hungry and u start walking from that studio to the canteen, trust me.u will die halfway.its like so far away.and u jus keep walking and walking like u nvr walk before like that.the whole sch is jus BIG.hahahs.and colourful too. hmmms. in the morning when we reached there, saw YU YAO!!!.hahahs.long time nvr see her liao.love her man.yeahh.our group was pathetic.i dunno why.but somehow all the guys and girls seems gay to me.LOL.yeahh.during the break.saw this guy wearing the same shoe as me. hmmm.first time i have ever met this kind of things..plus he's a guy.my god.so stupid lah. then bam told me that guy was in her group.

there was this guy in my group.i think his name is ying hao or wadever it is.he's super cute.not that kind like hot or wadever.but he;s small size and he cracks lots of stupid jokes.but hmmm...he action lah.i dunno how to describe him but whenever he tries to act leader, clarissa, heather and me will be like.hurhurrr.hahahs. then there's this RI guy whom i realy have no comments.he's like ok in the begginning.then all of a sudden i caught him crossing his legs when he sat on the chair.there's another one.called jeremy or something.all of us find him very familiar.i really saw him somewhere before.infact, all of us thought so.hahas. yeah.and there's this kenneth person in my group.hahaha.i LOVE his expressions man.i cun help laughing like shit.cos he got the super blur look.and when he's trying to act something, its like the emotion + blur face...its amusing for me lah. and yeahh.bam n ka zau n je says that the zenn chua guy in my group was their pri sch's top pupil.lols. then..hmmm.haish.the guys in my group were like.hurhurrr..i cun stand guys crossing their legs anymore!!..first is my tuition teacher. i was blooody shocked that he crossed his legs.now wad.wah.RI also follow the trend sia.i'm so so so disgusted lah..hahahs. but yeah.i'm in a gay mood today.muahaha.

at the classrooom there got this girl who wrote some love poem on the board. clarissa and me were reading it over and over again.muahahs. got to know heather and clarissa cos we are all equally crazy.MUAHAHS.

i dun want to go for the camp tmr.though its last day and the worst thing is that i will have to wear a dunman high uniform and worster is that the girl lending me her uniform is BIG size.and i'm like a air particle when standing beside her.ohno.i think the whole uniform willl jus cover me up.mans.i bet tmr will be another boring day.

BORINNNNGGGG!

2005-05-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

GOING CRAZY - NATALIE.

ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
my life just hasnt been the same ohh baby, nooo
when I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)

baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
cuz the feeling that I feel within
no other men could ever make me feel so right
its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
but I?d rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

(Bridge)
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
for you I?d cross the world, for you I?d do anything

(Chorus 2xs)
thats right baby I?m going crazy
I need to be your lady
I?ve been thinking lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me, roll with me I?m in love with you baby

break it down now I?ll tell you what I feel
from the moment I met you its been so damn real
my heart seems to skip another beat
every time we speak can you believe I feel so weak
tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
and you love me I?m your lady
I?ll be around waiting for you I?ll put it down be the one for you

I?m falling so deep for you crazy love for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
Wish you would stop fronting
its so in the weather i can no longer go on without
I just break down (down)

(Bridge)
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
for you I?d cross the world, for you I?d do anything

(Chorus 2xs)
thats right baby I?m going crazy
I need to be your lady
I?ve been thinking lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me, roll with me I?m in love with you baby

ohhh, ohhh....
crazy... lady..... lately....
ohhh ohhh.....
ohh ohhh ohhhhhh
baby...

2005-05-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

muahahhas.- i am DYING to learn taekwondo.
since pri school.which is a century ago, i wanted to learn taekwondo. and kick off all the idiots.hmms.its kind of like a dream. but i very scared after i learn it i will loose interest in it.well.hope not.but yeah.its been 3 yrs.finally my mom allows me to learn it.i am darn happy.hahahahahs.

2005-05-23T08:11:00.000+08:00

OMG.
yesterday was amazing!!!!
i LOVE vesak day!!
not yesterday actually.haha
last night went guang ming shan for the three step for kneel thing.
my first time there.there were so so many ppl!!..hahahahahahaha.i like it baby.

yeah..waited for a very long time in the big hall before we can start the three step per kneel thing.waited for like 2++ hrs i guess.cos we reached there at 9 plus and only started at 12. its like queueing like that.and wait there until i took a nap.lolx.before i start, i was like so excited.cos i nvr kneel there before.plus the weather is cooling. before we start, this guy knocked into me.quite good looking but a lil too old.like arnd 19 or 20?.and i was so clumsy.i keep banging into ppl cos i jus couldnt walk properly.its was very crowded and we had to line up and walk down this lane which is very small and everyone is like squeezing each other.i knocked into that funny guy for like dunno how many times.then right before we start, there was this auntie wearing the black shawl came and gave him a black shawl.i was shocked.cos those ppl wearing black shawl are those who are more devoted into buddhism one.as in go template quite frequently that kind.i mean he looks like that kind who goes orchard yesterday one.then wad.he goes temple frequently?.oh god.i couldn't imagine.hahahahahs.and i squat down at the pavement there while mom and my cousin lined up there.and thats when i found something interesting.HE HAS NO LEG HAIR!!!!
at first i was like why is his leg so shiny.glimmering under the light.i really thought he was wearing a layer of plastic over his leg.and after 5.51 seconds i realised tat it was made of pure skin tissue.i was like omg.then i told my mom.my mom was shocked.hahhas.i guess he use veet.hahahahs.

but hey.he's really cute.

during the 3step per kneel thing i was like dying and dying.cos i keep sweating and i hate sweating. at the beginning of it i was like wohaooo!.so fun man.then halfway i feel like dying already.but i perservere till the end.cos hey.supposed to show some sincerety for buddhism.hahahs.if u are really tired then when ppl kneel down that time u can remain standing.but must hold the palm at ur chest there. lols. in the whole thing i only stood for 3 times.hahas. and that guy without leg hair din even kneel at all.he jus stood for the whole thing.lolx.

after standing and kneeling continously for 2.5 hrs, i was bloody tired.and this woman who wore a hipster in front of me keeps revealing the top half of her butt.disgusting lah.and at the final third kneel, that stupid woman's butt hit my head.i was like wad shit lah.so ma lu.and then there was this boy who will spread out the jasmine flowers and he was like laughing and giggling abt it.wah lauuu
irritating lahs.

by the end of it my whole face was so dirty and sweaty and everyone were so smelly.wads the funniest thing is that before the start of the kneeling thing, i saw this bunch of teenagers with super nice hair.as in they wax until very nice lah.then at the end of it, i saw all of their hair flying in different direction.i was standing laughing like a ccrazy woman.ahahahhah,

but i really want to go next yr!!.hahas.cos i want to see whether the guy have grown any leg hair!!
hahas.he's dam funny.no leg hair.dun tell me he's a transexual.

oh speaking of that this morning's newspaper was abt some transexual ppl.and one of them was amazingly pretty.i cun believe he was a transexual....godddd.lolx

hahas.and reminds me of that time me and twin were at dohby gauht waiting for mrt.then all of a sudden saw this woman who looks super odd.then 5 min ltr we realised that he's a guy.ghahahahhahahhas

okays.i want to see more guys without leg hair

2005-05-22T16:03:00.000+08:00

2005-05-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

DEPRESSION

life is jus a horrible thing. i already had a bloody life already and now something else comes into my life.-depression.
today is jus one of the typical days when i so called pms.
i have no idea why,someone tell me why.
i feel bad at everything.honestly speaking.i feel like killing myself.
slitting off which only takes like 5 sec can end my 15 yrs of sorrow.
nth goes the way i want.nothing at all.
i want to be smart.and i wasnt
i want to be tall.and i wasn't
i want to have a happy family.and i didn't.'
i always tell myself.jus forget abt all these.this is life.there;s nth u can do.jus let the feeling pass by.
but then again.i really feel shitified.is it that i came into this world to feel sad and depressed and suicidal?.
i'm useless.there's no use for me staying in this universe.
cos i am not making any difference.and i am living like a dead one.
nth makes my life worthwhile.
things happens to me again.its jus non stop.wads wrong.why is that i must have so much obstacles in my life?.its only 15 yrs.and so many things for me to take in.i cun take it anymore.it's jus too much for me.

why is that everyone is so blessed.they have everything that i dun have.
his friends bully him again.my heart aches.no one will ever understand how it feels.to see him being bullied and unable to do nth.his clasmates are beasts,
i hate it.it hurts to seem them all suffering.i hate the feeling.

i have no freedom.
free me pls someone.

2005-05-14T09:48:00.000+08:00

life is boring.havent update for such a long time.everyone talks abt results.and here i shall not talk abt anything that has got to do with results.lolx.

firstly.i cun rmb anything interesting but i noe for the past few days many fun things happened.i cun rmb.short term memory.i'm growing old.

xiuqi lend me her shutter vcd today.and hey.its fri the 13th.eeeeeekkk.but nvm.gonna watch it at ah soh's house some day.i'm scared to watch it alone.

wah lau.today not in the bloogging mood.lolx.listening to all about u by mcfly.
i love mcfly..they are darn cute and the songs are very teenage..hehex.

going off liao.told u i'm not in bloggin mood.and i dun tink anyone reads this anyway.

2005-05-12T07:01:00.000+08:00

-I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY-

EXCEPT THAT I FEEL VERY DROWSY FOR THE WHOLE OF TODAY.

2005-04-30T13:11:00.000+08:00

<< SHUTUP >> SIMPLE PLAN.

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time to criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know that you're not

You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
(Shut up shut up shut up)
Is gonna bring me down
(Shut up shut up shut up)
You'll never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be
(Don't tell me who I should be)
Don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
Or watch you fade away

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna me down
Shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say
Is gonna bring me down
Bring me down
Shut up shut up shut up
Won't bring me down
Bring me down
Shut up shut up shut up
You won't bring me down
Shut up shut up shut up

2005-04-28T18:34:00.000+08:00

-YES BABY!.I FINALLY UPDATED.YEAH BABY

haha.today was total crap.had my mep test after sch.which i bet i'm so gonna fail.during the test.i crossed my leg.according to cheeri, its the medidating pose.then i was playing with my hair.i repeatedly did this throughout the test cos its such a comfortable environment to dry those sweat accumulated under my laps.especially in air con room.such a nice to slack like these.i guess it irritated some ppl.hahaha...and then while doing the paper, i felt the back of my head very itchy. so i used my pen to scrrrratch it.and it ended up being stuck in my hair cos the stupid pen cap hooked my hair.and i had a hard time taking it out.in the end i was frustruated and i jus pulled it out. and my hair was so messy.haishh...

anyways after mep, twin n me went home together.and twin was draggin her saxaphone home.and we went day n night to buy some tibits.n twin is so rich.she bought quite some stuff lah.hahha.and then whille paying, 31 came.so we jus rushed n get on the bus.at the broadrick stop,saw two guys sitting there like dumbasses. twin realised that she left her dearest 37 bucks sig bottle at day n night.so we jus got off the buss and walked all the way back to day n night.by the time we reached, i was already drowned by my own fragrant sweat.bleahx. and luckily the bottle is still there.if not i shall kill myself.cos i was helping her hold it all the while n i jus left it on the counter.bleahx. hahah.and of course.our displacement was zero all the until we got on the next 31 n passed broadrick and saw the same 2 dumbass guys sitting at the same spot. today was crap.i mean total crap..hahaha...and we saw val n jialing on the bus.firstly, we tok abt the sec 2 maths stuff, then we tok until val's ruler.lolx.told u its crap.

anyway.i'm proud of myself.i pmsed continuously for 3 days. say i'm pro. comeon baby.

2005-04-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

( Truth Is )by Fantasia

Ah Oh Ah Oh

[Verse 1]
Ran into an old friend yesterday Caught me by surprise when he called my name He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past Talked for a while, I smiled and then Said that he was seeing somebody and Told me this was gonna last Showing me her photograph

[Hook]
And all the feelings I thought were gone Came rushing back to me at once Tried to smile and hide the way I felt But I was thinking to myself

[Chorus]
(Truth is) I never got over you
(Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still I love with you (Truth is) I never should have let you go
(Truth is) And it's killing me cuz now I know
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still I love with you

[Verse 2]
We reminisce on the way things used to be Shed a couple laughs, shed some memories Talked about the things that changed Some for good and some for bad Then he said good-bye and he paid for brunch Promised that we'd always keep in touch Grabbed my bags and grabbed my furs, walked away and that was that

[Hook]
And all the feelings I thought were gone Came rushing back to me at once Tried to smile and hide the way I felt But I was thinking to myself

[Chorus]
(Truth is) I never got over you
(Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still I love with you (Truth is) I never should have let you go
(Truth is) And it's killing me cuz now I know (
Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still I love with you

[Bridge]
Now the truth is it hurts but I that the fault mines ‘Cuz I let him go Tried to get over it but it's messed up he's not mine (Because I know)

[Chorus (2x)]
(Truth is) I never got over you
(Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still I love with you (Truth is) I never should have let you go
(Truth is) And it's killing me cuz now I know
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done Guess I’m still I love with you
I just gotta be honest, I guess, I-I guess, I’m still in love, in love, in love

2005-04-27T16:52:00.000+08:00

john mayer -[daughters]*

From the album "Heavier Things"
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
where all of the walls are continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on the steps with my heart in my hand
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe It's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers
who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left cleaning up the mess he made
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers
who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth of
A womans good,
good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers
who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

2005-04-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

today was a stupid day.but i nvr had a good nice day before anyway.

yups.mr ang told me to be the presenter today..cos i was tired and i cun think at all..so i was kinda reluctant.honestly speaking.i'm scared of presenting.especially in a debate.i bet i'm so gonna forget everything and blank out.i bet i dunno wad to say and i will make a fool of myself...well.i got phobia of presenting.i'm scared lahh..but weelll..i realised that i cun run away from presenting all my life..i have to present in a debate one dayy..yeahh.one day.so might as well start earlier to train myself la right?.yeahh.....i shouldnt care abt how ppl think of me..yeahhh..i'm convincing myself now..take it as a practise.well..this is the first time i realised that actually mr ang aint jus doing what he feels like.i guess he noes that i;m runnin away from presenting which i didnt realise until he wanted me to be the presenter.well.i'm feeling guilty.hahahah..so stupid.the first time i'm feeling guilty for wronging a teacher.lalalla..yeahh..last time i keep having the thought that he looks down on me.but well..i guess he's trying to help me.i've been really badd lah.i didnt want to listen during his lessons and end up failing eng and blaming everyone for my failure.i feel so shittt nowww...i didnt realise how shitified my thinking is..

haish.i hate myself.
i have to change my whole mindset.somebody brainwash me pls..

2005-04-20T15:06:00.000+08:00

[Jermaine Dupri]
Dis is, the point when I need everybody get to the dance floor
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
Da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all)
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
Like da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all) MC

[Mariah Carey]
I came to have a party
Open up the Bacardi
Feeling so hot tamale
Boy, I know you watchin' me
So what's it gonna be?
Purple taking me higher
I'm lifted and I like it
Boy, you got me inspired
Baby, come and get it
If you're really feelin me

*'Cause it's my night
No stress, no fights
I'm leavin' it all behind
No tears, no time to cry
Just makin' the most of life*

**Everybody is livin' it up
All the fellas keep lookin' at us ('cause)
Me and my girls on the floor like what
While the DJ keeps on spinnin' the cut
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
It's like da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all)
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
It's like da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all)**

You like this and you know it
Caution, it's so explosive
Them chickens is ash and I'm lotion
Baby, come and get it
Let me give you what you need
It's a special occasion
Mimi's emancipation
A cause for celebration
I ain't gonna let nobody's drama bother me

*Bridge*

**Chorus**

*Bridge*

Everybody is livin' it up (I said everybody)
All the fellas keep lookin' at us (lookin at us)
Me and my girls on the floor like what
While the DJ keeps on spinnin' the cut
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
It's like da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all)
It's like that y'all (that y'all), that y'all (that y'all)
It's like da da da da, I like that y'all (that y'all)
This is my night

[Fatman Scoop]
Let's Go Now (what), let's go now (what)
Here we go now (what), here we go now (what)
Let's Go Now (what), let's go now (what)
Here we go now (what), here we go now (what)

[Fatman Scoop and Mariah]
Let's Go now (what), let's go now (what)
Here we go now (what), here we go now (what)
Let's Go Now (what), let's go now (what)
Here we go now (what), here we go now (what)

2005-04-16T07:42:00.000+08:00

mood swing in process.

feeling suicidal.

dun understand why it must be me

when will i be freed

this world is such full of toture for me

why is it that i'm the unfortunate one?.

why must so many things happening to me all at once?

all i want is a peaceful and normal life.

never like what i am now.so full of crap.

i hate my world.

i feel like crying.

and i feel like screaming too.

but i have to find a excuse to cry first.

i shall go find excuse now.

2005-04-13T19:24:00.000+08:00

hehh..today is a darn sadd dayy..had a mild headache in the mornin.though it was jus mild, but i felt uncomfortable.during eng.i had a fucking bad lesson.the groups were having a debate in front and i was jus sitting there writing notes.and twitch picked on me.he asked me what were the language features.then i was like.wad the fuck is that..and xiuqi told me the debate is in present tense.so i saidd that.and he was like.how did u noe its in present tense.[fuck it.i hate it].then i told him i didnt copy notes for language features..i copied for the points only.and he asked me what were the points.i was so darn pissed off...its so obvious that he's jus picking on me.he didnt want to let me sit down.he keep asking here n there.i was darn fucking pissed off....dam it.i hated it.to hell with it.FFFUUCCKKK.nvm.after schh..my head was hurting like shit.i was so giddy that i had to sleep under my table.everyone thought i died or something and my beauty sleep keeps breaking cos each persoon that walk past will ask me if i was still alive.

[[kill me

sleep halfway, wan yee came in and she was crying..her dance got silver for syf..and she was very very sadd..haishh..at least she gets to perform for syf..wad do i have.lolx.then she told me that the band ppl jus got back their results and they were very sad.
so we went to the area outside the beethoven room.and saw jiemei sittin there cryingg..poor thinggg....and there were a bunch of teachers who keeps toking non stop.and more and more ppl cried as they talked more crap...i was looking for twin.i saw everyone except for twinnn..and i kept asking round round and round.but they all say they didnt see her.then i saw pek.crying.everyone's crying.she was consoling this girl that i didnt think i noe at that time...then i ask someone and she pointed to the girl pek was consoling.she was like curling herself up.no wonder i couldnt regconise her.

oh there u are twin.i keep searching at the other end of the crowd when u are jus right in front of meee..hahax.then pek came up to go toilet or wadever i dunno.then i sat down at the place beside my dearest twin...and she was like:"TWWWINNN!!..." and she lied on me....that was the first time i saw my twin so sadddd...then i thought of myself not even being able to join syf...life jus sucks lah.i dunno why i lived for.i dunno why i still care to practise my viola...and then.as everyone cried, my tears started to swelll in my eyes too...hahax.i havent cried for a month.and i had so many tears...i cried much more then ws.and we shared the same piece of tissue to wipe our tears...hahah..sounds stupid.i was so extra.crying with the band ppl while some band ppl didnt even cry.but...twin and jiemei and everyone arnd me affected me..so..being a big freaking idiot.i cried lah.stupid sia...and i cun stop cryingg....twin was actually very sadd..but twin not that kind got a lot of tearsss..so she ddint really cry.but twin was so saddd...

but whats the funniest part was when we went day n night.val and jiemei started stuffing themselves with a big box of ice cream.we ransacked the whole fridge to look for a big box of ice creamm..finally they found a big box of chocolate ice cream.and they wanted to eat it.but the ice cream was too hard.so they put it into the micro oven.and they finally ate the ice cream.twinn then bought another box too and all of us started eating like madd.hahahaha...then all of a sudden i rmb that i havent eat lunch yet and i already stuffed myself with so much ice cream lex.so i bought a cup noodle and sucked in the noodles like i nvr suck things before.erm.sounds gross.hahax...then after eating up all the noodles, still got some soup left.and i invented a new way to eating ruffles.i soaked the ruffles in the soup and all of us start eating.i was surprised that it actually turned out to be quite tastey...chermaine was the most surprised one.cos she was disgusted by wad i did.haha..then val bought a 1.5 litre mineral water and drank more than 3/4 of it...and she pooured the rest of the water into the box of ice cream.and they threw chopsticks and sppooons inside and mixed it.haishhh..everything is so sadd todayy..cos of them, i was in a bad mood too..haish.everyone frm band all left with red eyes.and their seniors came back to see the results..so many ppl cried cos they came backk...well..

everything has already past and ended..so no more further thoughts abt it.
they all went to chermaine's house..lolx.jiemei and me didnt go.cos too late lex...haishh..and this sad day ended...

2005-04-03T15:39:00.000+08:00

BEAUTIFUL SOUL

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Chorus

yeah

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try

Chorus

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I dont want snother pretty face
I dont want just anyone to hold
I dont want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Youre the one i want to chase

Chorus 2X

Your beautiful soul, yeah

Girl, yeah, your beautiful soul, yeah

2005-04-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

once upon a time,
想当年。。。

there's a girl called brittney
loves basketball,
Friends and parties too,
And when it came to painting,
That's all she wanted to do.

She painted everything she saw,
Birds, flowers, and the sky,
Some days she sat at her window,
And painted everything that passed her by.

But lately she'd been feeling woozy,
Her muscles ached a lot,
And her parents got kind of worried,
So they took her to the doc.

The doctor took a couple of tests,
To see if everything was okay,
Then the nurse came out with a look of sadness,
And this is what she had to say;

"I'm sorry, but you've got leukemia,"
You've got about 3 months more."
Then Brittney got up and ran out of the room,
And slammed the office door.

She ran down the street screaming,
And cried her eyes out dry,
And stayed up all night,
Wondering what it's like to die.

Her parents held her tightly,
And said, "We love you,"
"We'll make your last few months the greatest,"
"We'll do anything for you."

So Brittney and her parents moved to Florida, to live by the sea,

Because Brittney loved the ocean,
And when she died, that's where she wanted to be.

She spent her days painting,
And horseback riding in by the bay,

But one day she met this guy,
And his name was Jay.

They collected seashells together,
And talked about all kinds of things,
And then one day while walking,
He handed her a ring.

It said, "I love you,"
Which brought tears to Brittney's eyes,
And when he put it on her finger,
She began to cry.

He asked her what was wrong,
and she then replied, "I've got leukemia, and about a month more."
He said," No matter what, I love you
And no matter what, you are the one I adore."

So they spent everyday together,
And swam in the Atlantic all day,
But Brittney was getting weaker,
And it was hard for her stay awake.

So one day Brittney painted her picture,
And gave it to Jay,
She said, "I want you to remember me,"
"Even when I leave this place."

But one day while they were walking,
And searching for seashells in the sand,
Brittney collapsed and started to lose her breath,
And said to Jay, "Please hold my hand."

I love you more than anyone,"
You are my only true love,"
But now my time is up,"
And I'll watch over you from above,"

Then Brittney's body was lifeless,

As she lay in Jay's arms,
And he sat there all day,

And kept her safe from harm.

2005-04-02T14:23:00.000+08:00

-mockingbirddd-

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right
now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never
had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what
destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night
crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in
a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole
it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr.
Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like
it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're
sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't f**k with dad (haha)

2005-03-28T18:59:00.000+08:00

haiiyaaa...today is so boringg...went to east coast park to do the geography waves thingyyy...and dam it.i reallly swear..dam it.everyone took off their shoes so that they can walk into the watersss..but jus nice i pmsinggg..so i really had no idea why i didnt want to take out my shoess..cos i scared later dunno how to clean i guesss..anywayss..after geog thingyy, went to roxy square with hidaya, ddy and atikah to print our class teee...that place very uuuloooo..hahaa..haishh..dam it..my periods intervals are like very oddd...the last period was like...i cun rmb.but near the end of last month, then now i got it yesterdayyy...got too much nutrition is it?.no idea..its giving me headaches..no idea why this time no cramp and come so little..lolx...today got another new A maths teacherrr..she talk so soft, and she like just reading straight frm the board..she's not even explaining..so i was like nodding everytime she looks at meeee..she's boring lahh..the first lesson i already cun stand her.she got a odd look..i dunno.but she looks sleepy lah....bleahxxx..i bet i gonna fail my A maths.changing teachers so many timesss...bleahx.i'm pmsing again..

2005-03-22T21:05:00.000+08:00

3E4 GOT INTO THE CHEERLEADING FINALLLSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

yayyy!!!we got into the finallsss!!!...well..actually 3/1 should get in..they are so good..but the stupid music screwed it up.dam music.haish...i love the 3/1 steps.and the 3/9 steps also..but heyy..3/1 is really great.i guess.its jus by luck.its the first time our class so coordinated...hehehxxx.i'm so excited for sports dayy..haha.i guess i'll be super screwed upp..i bet i'll forget all the stepss..and my shoe will drop.and when ppl formation.i'll be there picking my shoe againnn..haishhh..but i guess i am already very happy.at least we got a 2nd..lolx.i need to do my dumb ass irritating english news reporttttt...gtg...

-i say 3/4 u say cool-

2005-03-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

anywayz.after cheerleading went out with elaine and iris.went plaza sing walk walk then i went back to parkway to meet up with my cousin to sing k box.and we sang frm 3 to 8.amazing huh.then i chose this [tuo diao] song...then both of us were like singing [tuo diao tuo diao tuo tuo tuo diao...nanananaaa].and we were jumping around like opening a concert like thattt..then all of a sudden.a waiter.[quite cute] came in.and we froze.stopped singing.stood there watching him.and he saw wad was on the screen.jus nice that part du de wei stripped and he looked shocked.his eyes widened in 5seconds time with constant acceleration.....yes.and he used 6N to overcome the air+dead skin+dust resistance to widen his eyesss..anywayz.he jus looked shocked and he jus walked out of the room.after he closed the door,, both of us were like laughing like CRAZY....stupid.after 10.67 seconds, we realised that we missed some parts of the song.and so we decided to sing again..LOL.

[tuo diao]

2005-03-17T16:52:00.000+08:00

wohaoo!!!!!!!...3/4 cheerleading yesterday was so so so dam good!!!..not the best but definately better than wad i thought.we were very coordinated when it comes to the stomping partt...so neat.and everyone was like..[ooohhh].u noe.it feels so great.but before it starts..it was a total nightmare.hidayah forgot abt the cheerleading competition until we called her then she rushed here.when we called her, it was almost 8.and 8.15 is the reporting time...and we thought she will reach soon.we waited for her...and we waiteddd..i was very anxious.so dam scared.cos she is my partner and both of us standing in front and we are the ones starting the whole thing by dancing round and round singing the happy three friends song and the others freeze.so everyone will be looking at us at the start.butttttt..wad if she never come.i'll be the only one there twirling round n round by myself.thats gonna looks so stupid man...so then at 8.30, when it was our turn to perform.we asked mrs tan to allow us to be last item.and she allowed.i was like phewww.but if hidayah cun come by then then i'll leave it all to fate..and wan yee crieddd..she made me want to cry also but i manage to bear my tearrss..but luckily, hidayah camee..and all of us went to hugg her.and she keep saying soryy..haha.hidayah havent change yet and so we hide her behind the bush and jus hug each other to form a hole for hidayah to change inside...she was wearing this shocking red bra and everyone were like trying to help her hide the strap cos she wore a racerback....when it was our turn, we got into our positions and started the thing...after the [hey ppl 3/4's here, we have come to make u fear] we stomped to get into our positionss,, it was so dam coordinated and everyone were like wooohhh..hahaha...the [everybody yeah..3/4's here alright] was the nicest part.and everyone cheered for us after thattt...the whole cheer ended up nice.better than wad i imagined.the class also cheered the cheer with us.hahaaa..then everyone were like counting the top3 classes and were one of them!!..hehexx..i'm happy cos there arent any shoe incident like last yearrr...hahhh..now jus hope that we can be the top 3..hehe..

[3/4 cheer]
(hidayah and me)lalalallalallaa
(everyone)lets twist and cheer,
put our hands together
yeah..
lets shout out loud
3/4 ohana is here

hey people 3/4's here
we have come to make u fear
3/4's united
3/4's strong
we stick together and cheer this song
we have beauty we have brains
we will kick u down the drain
we have rhythm and the zest
and like duhh, we'll beat the rest
we believe in teamwork
that help us through the way
so lets all now say,
3/4 all the wayy!!

*stomp*
everybody yeahh.
rock ur body yeahh
everybody yeahhhh
rock ur body right
3/4's here alright!!

i say 3/4 u say cool
3/4 cool 3/4 cool
i say 3/4 u say yeah
3/4 yeah 3/4 yeah
i say 3/4 u say cool
i say 3/4 u say yeah.
3/4 cool 3/4 yeahh
3/4 3/4, cool yeahh

*stomp*
peanut butter
resus cup
u mess with us
we kick ur butt
our hands are high
our feets are low
and tats the way the 3/4s go

living in our hive
a family
no matter what we do
u stick to me
we are jus like honey bees
so cohesive
so happy togetherrrrrr

olehh oleh oleh oleh
3/4
oleahhhh
3/4
oleahhh

2005-03-06T18:51:00.000+08:00

okay.this is start.the begginning.(did i spell wrongly?).
my horoscope says:
[You are currently in the middle of one of the most positive phases of the year and what happens around the time of the new moon on Thursday will convince even the most cynical of Cancerians that life really is a marvelous adventure. If you have been thinking of moving in a new direction, or maybe even of moving to a new location, now is the time to stop thinking and start acting. Success is guaranteed.]

kay-.
-i'm gonna change my studying habits
-i'm gonna change my craziness.
-i'm gonna pass my eng.and make sure twitch won't give me his shit face
-i'm gonna reallly be a professional fan of keanu reeves
-i'm gonna increase my EQ.yay.go keyi
-i'm gonna stop smiling so wide.looks really dumb
-i'm gonna pay attention in class(i really gotta try my best man.)
-i'm gonna drink more milk, jump and grow taller
-i'm gonna eat vitamin A-Z so that i'll be brighter
-i'm gonna try my best in everything(yet another impposible mission)
-i'm gonna try not to cry whenever i fail badly for my test.
-i'm gonna make sure i wont hurt anyone when i'm talking.unless i really mean it.
-i'm gonna make sure i tried my best so that i have a reason to cry.
-i'm gonna stop dull conversations between ppl.if not i'll jus shutup
kayyy..thats the end of my resolutions.
ITS A NEW BEGINNING!
I SHALL NOT DIE!
AND I SHALL COMPLETE MORE THAN 50% OF MY RESOLUTIONS.

-----lalalalala----

jus came back frm cheerleading at kembangan cc.was late for half an hour cos went there straight after tuition and it only ends at 2.didnt noe everyone was waiting for me until mingfang called me.haish.then we spent lotsa time cheorography our steps.and wan yee jus love that egyptian step.we used it for the peanut butter cheer.turn out to be quite odd lah.but cun think of other steps.the whole thing was mainly cheorographed my wan yee cos only she know mah.and tell u wad I'M STANDING INFRONT!!!...omgosh.i DUN WANT TO STAND IN FRONT!!!.WAD IF I 'M LIKE LAST YEAR?.KILL ME.OH KILL MEEEEEEEE.....i have phobia for performing nowww..shit.hope nothing goes wrong during that day and hope i wont drain the whole thing jus cos a shoe again.haish.the coming weeek got 3 humans ca leh.dunno whos good idea was that huh.kick his/her ass man.

life seems to be quite boring these days.cos it jus seems that nothing has ever changed.i still have 20000million strands of hair on my head.i stil love keanu reeves than anyone.i still hate the tkgs teachers.i dunno.

bluuhuuuhuhuhuhhh....i dunno wad i'm doingggg..

2005-03-02T18:03:00.000+08:00

haish...life has been soo soo SHIT.my whole brain is full of SHIT.she's changing.getting more and more biased.but wad can i do.she scolds me for using the com for jus 10 min when he gets to use for 1 hr without getting scolded.
its always me.
never not me.
i dun understand why.
wads the diff between girls and guys.
jus that guys are flat chested.wad else..
higher IQ but low EQ?..
oh i see.

kay.let me think of something happy to write abt.
yup
went out on sunday for jessie's birthday..and we watched hike and seek.our ending is that father was the charlie and he died in the end.i guess everyone had the same ending bahhzz..cos most ppl watch at plaza sing la.lido.cineplex..haha.in the morning was pissifying.it's abt her.haish.then as i walked frm mrt station to lido to meet up with them, everyone were staring at me.staring.yes.cos i looked like i was going to kill someone....oh man.cos i kept thinking abt wad happened in the morning and the more i think the more pissed i am.

this is shit.
hide and seek is so sick.some scenes were like horror movie like that.like all of a sudden here"boom" and there"boom"...so scary u know.the chair in lido was so nice to sit on.can lean back one leh..so funn...was eating KFC as i watched the movie.yes.i smuggled in the food in.and was so full that i cun eat anymore.the cheese fries is bloody cheesy.cheese until i cannot tahan anymore.lol.then after that, we went to hunt for je's pressie.after going in and out of that roxy shop for 3 times, jessie su yi xi finally decided on this pink handbaggg...which is $55...but we split the cost lah.haha.that bag very cute leh.but very small..dun look like $55 stuff.u can buy 2 set of clothes or more than that in THIS FASHION.seldom buy anything frm there.only got there buy tube lah.bla bla.never even try to buy any tops frm there...they have too wonderful tops to be worn...

i failed eng very badly.compre was below 5 our of 25.
lowest in class.
fucking twitch suan me in front of the whole class.
hhee loves it huh.
off to hell he goes.

2005-02-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

oh yeahh...long time never update..today jus had chem test..and i have totally given up the hope of at least passing by boderline..the questions are really bloody hardd...i almost burst into tears during the test...by the time i jus started on the first qn of section B, only got 20 min left...stupid sch..want to give so many test still want to give so hard one..stupid tkgs...i'm feeling vulgar today cos after the test i was saying this word for hundreds of times and today is the first time i've ever said it so many timess...and of course..it is the world wide most famous word -FUCK-..i always sensor it whenever i blog with this word..but today i really cun stand my stupid sch and i'm so pissed off....its like we dun have a lot of materials to study for and they gave these stupid questions like why is it that the spraying can is cool when it is being used...that is so fucking stupid right?...i didnt noe wad to ans

and i was panicking through the whole paper...whenever i come across any questions that i dunno..i really feel like crying..and i really feel like crying for the whole damn paper...it sucks man.really sucks.why must they make my life so pissifying for me?.i dun get it.they never really teach until that chim also they want to set so hard for us....like very shuang is it.fuck loke yeo...so many good teachers left because of that fucking old disgusting chicken.bet she went for some plastic surgery that made her look young.she will step on shit everyday whenever she gets out of her house.damn her..zhuang left, yeo left and i heard still got some other teachers left because of her...bloody her..and now she is like giving us so many hard tests ccos she thinks this will make us work even harder..at first i wanted to work hard..but i realised that when there are so much to study for, i had the thought of giving up and jus flunk all the tests..dun want to care..that is how shit my life is.LOKE YEO.OFF TO HELL U GO U STUPID UGLY DAMN WICKED HEARTLESS BRAINLESS DUMMMIE CHICKENIC ASSHOLE...more to go but my vocab is too little.kay.lets drag in the science department.STUPID SCIENCE DEPARTMENT.SET SO HARD.THE NEXT TIME WHEN THEY ARE SETTING PAPERS, THEIR ROOF WILL FALL AND KILL THEM ALL.AND THEY ALL GO HELL.bleah.this is so baddd...haha.furious cos they didnt really test on wad we had learnt in the texts and that we werent given any exercise that is like the format of the test paper we jus had.,cos their style was to test straight frm the text..now they all of a sudden change...fuck all those who were involved in the chem test..especially NADAN..s'pore president.why he go change the 5 day thingy...i'm stressed..chinese is crap.mrs tan cun teach.cun stand her.she only know how to crap abt the whole textbk whereby she's not even teaching the vocab words....stupid.stupid,stupid....

went to the pulau bukom thingyyy todayy..it wasnt fun.it sounded fun but it was total crap.i thoght we gonna see the distillation thingy for the fuel one..i thought we gonna see the real one.and guess wad..we saww it on a screeen!!..tadaa..aint that fun?.it jus a stupid simple presentation with nice toning and nice drawingss..which looked so fake...so wad i thought.seeing the real stuff, how they make the oil all these bla bla bla..end up watching presentation of it....its like wad..taking a ferry all the way to pulau bukom jus to watch a presentation?..anywayz.i doz off halfway and when the guy switch on the lights in the theaterette, i was like wahh..so fast arhhz..and then i realised almmost everyone were sleeping...after the presentation, we sat on a bus and it jus drived around the whole place..which to me seems jus to be like pipessss...and he keep toking and toking..once again i doze off...cos i was really sleepy..especially after getting off the ferry...so giddy man..then after that we got off the bus and went to this place that is like near the sea, then got swimming pool there one..and we sat there and ate sandwichesssss..i ate 4..following by did,3 then wan yee 2 and hidayah 2..haha. we were so funny man.we were like lesbians keep holding hands and walking in foursss.and then we took some pics beside the sea..and wan yee and me were like standing in the titanic posee..jus that she never hold my waist laa..hahaha.limin tok the picture for us...the water at pulau bukom so clean man...the colour is like light blue u noe..jus like the hawaii water colour like that..the water was so clear that we can see some parts in the waterrr...haha..it was very nice to see the water but defiinately not the pipes..it was jus so boringgg...

after we reached sch..someone called didi jus to tell her that there were vs guys having a soccer match with tks at tks..haha...and we saw atiqah and her friend standing at the netball court jus beside the fence to watch the guys playy..so stupid..then we went there and hit atiqah's butt..i hit and she slammed mine..so pain mann..atiqah watch until got saliva come out mann..haha.then 4 of us went to parkway to eat..cos we were so hungary..had kfc..and i told them abt the story of me wearing my shoe when ppl are posing at the end for last year's cheerleading competitionn..which i ended up crying for the whole dayyy...we laughed so loud that everyone were looking at us..at the end of everything..so tiredd..but so happy,..cos we kinda bonded with did and hidayah and wan yee..wan yee actuali long time ago bonded liaox.that pig sit in front of me onlyy..and we always make so much noise. ah twitch hate us i guess cos we always tok a lot..haha.

haish.havent study physics yet..going off to slouch in front of papers and books now..byeeee.
with loveee...and valentines was great.got small cute rose frm jiemei and wan yee..and loads of sweets that i didnt know who gave..haha.

2005-02-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

haha/.KEANU REEVES is SO SO SO HANDSOME.HE'S HOT MAN.i shall now idolise keanu reeves!!!..haha.in my life.i have never seen such a cute,and handsome and charming* guy...and that is KEANU REEVES!!!..i was firstly attracted by him in MATRIX.then i was greatly attracted by him in MATRIX RELOADED..then i'm stuck to him for life in MATRIX REVOLUTION.....keanu reeves is so cute.cun u see,,his eyes,his set of beautiful teeth.especially when he smiles.i want to faint.i feel like flying over to hong kong to see him now...i want to watch CONSTANTINE.n i HAVE to watch...i mus pray very hard that its not NC-16.cos i heard there are some scenes that are very violant....nooooo..i cun imagine if constantine is NC-16..thats gonna kill me..

hahahsshh..test over le.but more to come.at this moment at least everything has settled down.no more hectic nights and stupid thoughts of dying in the middle of the night when i'm sleeping aka painless death.haha.

listening to welcome to my life by simple plan right now..feel that the lyrics is really like how i feel..its exactly how i felt when the test are on.

and today was total crap..i jus realised that how much i'm scared of leadership/.
today -TWITCH- didnt come.cos of some dunno wad workshop i guess.then he left us some work to do..its to get into groups of 4 and do a recount.then he gave the amount jus enough for each group.each group one piece...then at first i didnt realise that there were 2 diff handouts so i jus give out everything.then later i have to collect everything back again...haha.then its jus a total mess.then when i got everything clear.count the number of papers we have, we give out.and some ppl told me their group member's names so i gave them one paper.then they change group and join other ppl who also had that paper....and they didnt tell me...so there were groups who dun have the paper.stupid twitch also.why never give extra,..its so irritating kay..why didnt they tell me that they changed groups..if they did..then the whole situation wont be so messy.luckily jessica helped me.if not i sure die one.cos i almost blanked out..this sucks la..was complaining to jessica and atiqah..and they were like..poor thing..but 3/4 is like this..yeah..my class is odd this year..but some are nice ppl..hehe..off to sleep now..byeesss

2005-02-02T14:18:00.000+08:00

sheeeeeeeshh...a stupid day jus finished...life really sucks.cos it so bloody boring..so many things happened ever since school started.none of them were good..so many tests..so many craps..so many shits everywhere..i really dun get the meaning of life..is it all about studying and slouching in front of books...i'm pissed of with her..she claims that i am sms some guy whom i knew frm the net to be a 80 yr old guy..but he's jus some human abt the same age as me..she dun have to be so unhappy abt it.so wad if i'm msging a 80 yr old guy..he cun ask me out wad.as in i wont go lahh..u lie to me i lie to u.u hapy i happy lahh..wads her problem..she says that she dun think i will pass sec3..maybe she hopes so but i really dun want that to happen..i'm stressed..i dun understand A maths..i dun understand physics.i dun understand everything..thaat gay gay strawberry head tution teacher is biased to my brother.i ask him a qn.he will jus breifly ans me..thats so like wadever.i hated it man.i dunno wad to do now..i'm in the sch library..suposed to do my A maths hw.end up playing com..lol.but i will do at home lahh..i hate my life..so irritating and ****ing pissie..tmr got mo xie..so many things to memorize..howwww..i'm so dead...now i really hope to die when i'm sleeping soundly..painless death...

- lost*

2005-01-29T11:49:00.000+08:00

*YELLOW

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.

I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow."

So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.

I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.

Cos you were all "Yellow,"
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."

Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know for you,
I'd bleed myself dry for you,
I'd bleed myself dry.

It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do

2005-01-29T11:41:00.000+08:00

Only One Lyrics

*Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't,
I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't,
I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go,
scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one
that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes,
let you down
And I can't,
I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't,
I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go,
scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go,
but there's just no one
that gets me like you do
You are my only one
my only one

Here I go
so dishonestly
Leave a note
for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go
and you will find someone

Here I go,
scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go,
but there's just no one,
no one like you

You are my only,
my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only,
my only one

2005-01-24T18:33:00.000+08:00

oh surprised man...

haha..i was so crazily happy today...the moment i reached home i immediately switched on the computer to update my blog..i am so so so happy.todayy..during the lessons, someone frm another class came in to pass us this thing sent frm OBS...it was frm [LJ]!!!..we opened the envelope and found this whole stack of letters and a cd-rom. it was so sweet kay.even those who didnt really like feel any likes or dislikes for LJ felt so sweetened. we are the only class with a instructor sending something for us i guess..for jessica and me all these, we know that LJ is a very nice perosn. but we never expected him to send all these.haha.he should be in singapore now cos last time he told us he wont be taking the course for this week.*how did the envelope ended on those girl's handss...did he make a trip to our sch or something?..even if he did, i didnt see him.so dun wish to know..lol..yup.back to the main subject. everyone were like busying grabbing for the card with their own name on the front page. i grabbed mine of course and found that he left me a message.he said:" hey, thanks for your comments. told you liao mah, cannot smile one loh.how to have nice smile?ya...how to still have mood to take picture when so so late already? thanks. will try to be more cheerful too.

OMG%#$%$#%$#...i'm bloody surprised + shocked + HAPPY...lol. especialy that part [told youn liao mah..cannot smile one loh]..so CUTE right?????....ahhahahaha..cos i wrote on that survey paper [ this instructor very stern lehh..always dun smile one...blabla(i cun rmb wad i wrote at this part).but he's a nice person LAH.he's got a nice set of teeth..should smile more and he dun like to take picture also.why arrhh??..we were all so disappointed when he did not want to take picture with us. please.do make him smile.]..i think thats what i wrote...it sounds dumb..cos i was feeling quite sleepy and i dun noe what to write...lol.was crapping on the paper.

but later on i realised i am the only one that has got that extra page of message...i was so so happy..did i leave that gooooood impression that he only wrote to me???...HAHAHAHAHAH..no lahh..cos i think i was the only one who wrote so much for the instructor's comments mahh...i ran arnd the sch telling ws bla bla bla abt it..but ws didnt seem to understand wad i want to say..cos i was in a rush of time..so when i saw her.jus threw her the whole chunk of wordsss..lol..jus finished my eng ..how happy..still got social studies and history...lol...wish me luck for tmr lorhhzzz..

2005-01-21T11:17:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm OBS...really tireddd...but i'm really saddd todayyy...it's quite a touching dayy actualllyy..cos LJ played this song high by lighthouse family..i thought i was gonna cry when i heard it.but i manage to save all the tears to the end of the day..where by me and jessica went to him personally and said thank you to him..at that moment i really wanna cryyy.....

FIRST DAY..
i was like gonna die..cos it was so rainy..and tiring..and we were doing this hand tangling game...and we dun seem to be able to untangle it..and LJ asked if we want to give up.then i was like.i really want to.but then how can say that right..bleah..on the first day, i thought he was one odd breed.no smiles.but i also saw his necklace tat really attracted my attention..it was like a carving of a frog on a piece of dark green rock..it's not the normal frog la..it was some artistic thingy la..it really loookeddd soo nice..the first day was boring..and we got to know that oour camping site will be on a mountain..a hill actually..and i was thinking if i would roll down the hill at night cos i was flip here n there in the night...but i survived through the night laaa

SECOND DAY...
second day was boring too..we learnt some climbing on the rope thingyyy..it sounded fun..and we are supposed to carry our friend on the rope that's hanging over a hook..then i was supposed to pull the rope down so that whoever on the other end of the rope will be on the airr..then our rope climbing site was soo near to the flying fox thinggyy...and other ppl were doing flying fox la..rock climbing la..and we..rope climbingg..lol..all my attention was there..

THIRD DAYY...
we are gonna do land expedition..and we gonna walk a very long distance to go to this quarry whereby we will build a raft within 1 hr 15 min and make it float on water...on the wayy..i carried the bag for the first 1/3 of the journeyy...then yong en take over me and i was carrying watter bottles and bla bla bla for other ppl..then walk halfway..yong en was too tired..and i had to carry the bag by myself..the bagpack is really long and big..frm my butt to top of my headd..tt sort of hiking bag...and i couldn't stand properly..i was like gonna fall down for almost everystep that i walk.and the part where my back curves aches a lot..very pain...then finally,i really couldn't take it.and we rested there.. i walked really bloody slow.so slow that i'm the last one.and LJ was walking behind me la..and my bagpack was slanted to my left..and i didn't even realised..and when i was abt to stand up..i couldn't balance myself and was like dancing all over the place jus to balance..and he helped me adjusted my bag..thats when i changed the thought of cursing him everynight...i'm starting to feel really guilty abt always laughing at him..cos i jus realised he's a nice perosn..after we reached the quarry,which took us 3 hrs, we had to make this raft with some pipes and ropes within 1 hr 15 min...in the end, we couldnt finish and we were like tying halfwayy and he said "time's up.dismantle everything now.."..we were so disappointed and some of us feel like crying..yong en cried sadly.wadever.but then, after all these disappointment, he asked us to put on our lifevest and jump into the water..the water was so clean.it sounded simple but then it was really fun..we were like screaming and shouting and singing in the waterrr...hahahaaa...really fun man.

--at night--
a big big joke happened at night...yong en and soo ming slept really early..and only shilin and me in the tent were awoke..and there were many other ppl in other tents who couldn't sleep too..everyone was like toking and toking..every tent got ppl laughing at different intervalss...i was sleeping at the most inside of the tent..and the lights at the parade square were shining at my direction..shilin and me were chitchatting and laughing away when that LJ go and stand outside my tent..which cast a shadow...i saw it..and find it sppoky..cos it's like 12.30 plus..the shadow was realllllyyy BIG..so i think it should be quite near to my tent..LJ stoooood there,..do nothing u know..he jus stood there stiff and really stiff for 15 minutess..he didn't even move..so i thought it wasn't him..i want to make sure if it's him..so i purposely told shilin that it should be LJ..but then that idiot outside never say anything...so i was really scared..then...i go and poke the shadow...and realised that i couldn't touch the thing outside at all..shilin and me were like really really so so scared lohh..then something went wrong with my brain..and i asked him: ARE U ARE HUMAN OR A GHOST?...it's really stupid..then the stupid shadow outside never say anything again..BOTH OF US WERE FREAKED OUT...i so scared that i was trembling...and i found that this window which was covered by a cloth had this little hole there..so i decided to loook out..and then i saw a stupid face:LJ...i knew it..but why he never say anythingggg.......that night i wasn't able to sleep..cos he stood outside my tent for so long.he's scaring every nerve of mine.after he went, shilin and i were laughing like crazy..but we tried to be as quiet as possible.ddun want him standing outside our tent again..

LAST DAYY. :'(
the morning i woke up and i really felt like staying awhile more....rather than going back home..then we went to wash the tents all these.we didn't have enough time to cook our breakfast.all of us actually forgot abt our breakfast.and LJ was so nice .he coooked a pot of milo for us.and we were like so touched.....after all scrubbingsss..we went to ask him to take photo with us..but he din want too..we were disappointed..the whole watch..we proceedded to a meeting with him for our sharing session...then that was when he playing the song high by lighthouse family..he asked us to pay attention to the lyrics.and close our eyes..the music played and that really made all of us so touched and feeel like crying..then he go on toking abt all these quotations that he thought of..and after that, he gave out this survey form..and there was this section abt wad we thinking of our instructor..and all of us wrote that he's emotionless...stern..dull.doesn't smile..bla bla bla..haha..after everything..the teachers came to collect us..and he had to leave us.and i heard ppl saying that we had some missing stuff like ponchous and pitching peks.which cost us $20.and LJ actually paid for us..other watches had to pay for every single thing they lost.he was really so nice.i asked him abt the frog necklace and he told me that he acutally wennt to costa rica to hike for 360km and that's how he got the necklace..i jus find him so friendly on our last dayy..before we go..we were saying thank you to LJ...and that was the first time i saw him smilinggg i guess...jessica and me were really like trying so hard to pull back our tearss.cos we know that we won't be able to see him again.and he's nice to the leaders too.so there was an impact on us.as in we were one of those who were affected by him la...but somehow i didnt manage to bear my tears..hahaa..but i didnt break down in front of him la.now..back to singapore.quite not used to the HDB flats..but facing the reality,so many hw.so many CAs to deal with..argggg..but i know.i will never forget our bondings and everything we did in OBS..memories that will never be lostt..

2005-01-20T18:24:00.000+08:00

Lighthouse Family

High

by Unknown
When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love...

2005-01-14T20:59:00.000+08:00

ooooooo.long time no update le..hehe/.next monday we will be going for obs..how fun.i kinda look forward to it,but i very scared i will die on that island..together with ws..lol.it sounds fun..jus that i hated the part abt grasshoppers jumping into ur tent..its horrible..lets tok abt ah yap..my physics teacher.he's BLOODY boring and has no sense to taste..jus look at wadever he wearssss..he wore this shirt yesterday that was like orange outside and blue inside..its horribleee..and he buttoned up his collar..how interesting can he gett...and u know wad..he pronounced my name as KEVI..then he was like who'se kevi..and he keep looking at the registed list..dun have wohh..then he looked really frustrated..and stupid bindyah said i'm CURVI..arggg..and today miss yeo had a new set of clothesssss!!!..how exciting right?!..hha..and i was the first one to tell .twitch. abt it..haha..my brother is barking at me now..going offfff

2004-12-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

christmas eve was fun..the whole street was packed..and there were many performances..and everyone are like spraying each other with that foam spray that looked like snow....and i see a group of ah bengs going arnd spraying ppl..my brother kana..it was really fun..

went to orchard AGAIN to exchange my pair of size 6 slippers to size 7 on christmas..and so i had to bring that whole bag of slippers there to xchange./..and my dad saw that plastic bag
Dad:o-m-g keyi!
Me: what?.
Dad: why is it that those girls on the plastic bag are wearing so little?
Me: what girls?.o u mean my roxy bag?comeon.its jus bikinis.
Dad: yes..keyi.what did u buy?.dun tell me u bought some disgsting underwears.
Me: no.its jus a pair of slippers frm roxy

-my dad was being disgusted by how the girls on the roxy plastic bag dressed..jus in bikinis and he was yelling at me.that day before i go with ah soh.i told her that my dad's gonna yell at the plastic bag.and now he really did

Dad:no no no.*handed me his newspaper*
Me: what.
Dad: COVER UP THOSE GIRLS WEARING UNDERWEARSSS..

2004-12-24T16:09:00.000+08:00

omg..9 min to christmas eve...somebody named chermaine said that she's gonna hold a party or something then end up cancelling it coz she's too busy dating someone called lionus...was so looking forward to the party...

there..at home.so many things happened

i saw an angel with broken wings.i really want to help her...but there's really nothing that i can do..she's nice..she's kind.friendly..but sometimes i really hate her for her biasness...but sometimes i really love her coz she's the person who treats me best in the world.i need her almost the next half of my life...in fact.i need her for the rest of my life.i dunno wad to do without her

today..something really bad happened...the angel had a tiff with him..and she ended up having her wings broken.she cun fly..all she had was that little thing she gave birth to...i wanted to give her what it takes to make her not feel so miserable..but i realised what she really really needed wasnt me.it was the love he gave her 14 years ago..but she knows its never gonna come back..the feel is not there..

omg..life is so horrible..watching all these things happening..not knowing what to do...not able to do anything at all...jus watching how these happy thing turn out to such a sad situation...i really hope that she will get what she really wanted..what it takes for her to be happy forever....she's my life..so my christmas wish is that she will get happiness forever...and hope that she will be safe and sound for the rest of her life..n of course..for me to grow taller!!!!!..kk..

its christmas eve todayy...i gotta cheeer up..

2004-11-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

BBRRRR...so cold now..but it was quite warm this mornin.lol.been eating n sleeping for the whole week ever since i came back..no msn for me coz my couz's com dun have..so dam ass...hmm..went shopping with couz today..couldn't find the place i want to go..so i went to a place that i dun like..also a shopping centre la..hah.bought a bracelet for $1++...10rmb dollarsss..actually she sells it for 15 rmb dollars one..then i n my couz tao jia huan jia...so in the end bought it for 10rmb dollars..couldn't find anything nice over there at all..so bought those key chains la bla bla bla for 2 rmb dollars each/.which is like around 50 cents s'pore dollars..a\haha..had fun splurging..heart doesn't ache at all..n bought a lip gloss for only 4.80 rmb dollars...how cheap right..if in s'pore dollars will be like arnd 90 cents like that..haha..bought a cute nail clipper...couldnt find anythihng nice n went home then/...spent 40 rmb dollars today...enjoy coming back to china coz i can spend as much as i want to n the food here is hundred times better than in singapore..when the price is diff..taste is diff too..haha..get wad i mean..hehe..my fingers are going numbb...o ya..dunno why this com canot open my floatin-zzz page so i shall activate my smile-baby page..have not been using it for agess..hehe..hmm..wonder i m going to do tmr..so boring..read storybk?..no idea...so boringgg..

2004-11-27T19:40:00.000+08:00

haha...now in china..sz..gettting very very cold here..brrr..haha..hmm///went to hk few days ago..n it was real dam interesting..coz there's one main attraction there:GUYS.hot GUYS...my god..the hk people are all soooo cool n hot!!..even the waiter is so handsome...stil got the salesperson also very cute...haha..been observing n hunting for cute guys n ended up dreaming abt them..haha.hk are full of weird people..many kinds of slouching people there...one type is like woo schuann's..n the other type is like mine..saw this girl walking down the street with the same shape on her back as mine..lol..kk..still got more..but my brother is yelling at me to give him the com..so i shall say:HK GUYS ARE SO DAM HOTTT!!,..*SCREAMS*. hehe..hope that the weather will get colder n colder..hehe..bored..bb

2004-11-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

AHHH!!!----I LOST MY WALLLETTT!!!----...i wanna die..really..my stupid wallet..n the stupid doll show..it's killing me..my mom is scolding n scolding me abt it..today.went to watch the doll master with je n ah soh n twin at orchard cineplex..doll master was dam scary.n i screamed until dunno like wad like that.before that..je they all want to smuggle food in n i was carrying a big bag..so they stuffed all the stuff into my bag..in the theatre..took out all the food for them..n the show started..it was scaryyy..so i forgot to close up my bag.was busying finding something to cover my eyes jus in case something scary jus jump out..it was DAM SCARYY..was screaming so loud for the first time...complaining n blaming je for suggesting to watch this stupid doll show..in the show.the doll appears everywhere..n there was this freaky part that the doll killed the girl inside the toilet..she folded her up..its scaryy,..n i screamed,of course..n all the stuff dropped out....so i jus stuffed everything back to my bag..which was when i most probably i had lost my wallet...so after the show..ah soh din dare to go toilet because of the show..n we went the neoprint shop to take neoprints..was searching my dam bag for my wallet inside the machine...then i was like:shit..die le.....so went all the way back to the cinema..n the stupid usher din let me in..coz got another show showing inside...so he went in to ask the ppl if they saw a wallet..i think it most probably it had dropped onto the ground under the seats loh..after that show..we went back to look for the usher again..he said that he still couldn't find my wallet...i almost cried out right at the spot..inside my wallet got $40 n my house card n ez-link carddd..n other stuff...finally decided to call my mom while taking the lift down..broke down coz she was dam angry abt it..luckily the place was kinda deserted..i made a fool of myself..i want my wallet backkk...i think i going back tmr again to look for it...will ask other people with higher rank to help...my bro suggested that..mom says i'm stupid..how can i ever loost my wallet like tat..welll.i think i'm really stupid..how can i forget to check if i had my wallet inside my bag before i go off???...i hate myself...hate it.if tmr still cannot find..i dunno wad to do alreadyyy....got lots of things to do..gotta make a police reportt..n gotta call the ez-link company to cancel my carddd..n still gotta pay for my house cardddd...life really sucksssss..i really hope that i will find it back..coz i m really really really sure that my wallet is inside the cinema..cun think of any other places i have left it....I WANT MY WALLET BACKK!!!!!!!!..mom's very cold to me now..and really big thanks to twin, ah soh n je..thanks for staying with me untill so late jus to wait for my wallet..which in the end i still couldn't find it..i believe its inside the cinema..i dun care...i MUST find it..its my life..my whole life is inside...arrggggg..wad if i dun find it back??...i shall go n kill myself man..lol.i dunno..but life's still gotta move on..no idea..lost now..i want my wallet back..missed it.i want it baccccck..

2004-11-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

lol...wad a fun day today..had to wake up in the morning to go orchard to meet up my mom..was actually supposed to work today..but then it was cancelled..they said no work for small ones like me n sara ann...-classes are too small..lol..kk..today was so funn..woke up early in the morning..coz gotta meet up with mom at orchard.she went for eng lessons..though i dun see any effect..bla.then was at the bus stop n realised that i missed the bus..lol.and then..was digging my bag to look the dam hp n realised i left it on the dinning table..so i walked back my house to get it..n i realised that i looked too pinkish..-pink top n white skirt, with some pink patterns on it..so i changed into another skirt..n i rushed down to the bus stop coz i think the bus is gonna come soon...in the lift..i saw the indo-chinese vs guy living on the 3rd floor.-i was living on the 4th floor..n he always like to play techno music i realised..coz i heard him playing it often nowadays...i thought he died or something coz yesterday i didn't hear any techno music..n then..i saw him.the lift stopped at 3rd floor..n he came in..jus like me..always wearing the same old set of clothess...his usual uniform - black top n bagy black pantss..all black.he grew fatter i think...he jus looked a bit larger than last time..lol.then u noe wad..i realised that there was this lizard in the ground.again....n it's like crawling so dam near to meeeee..i was freaked out..why does lizards like me so much?...always see them either on the lift ceiling or the ground one..its staring at meee..n the lift stopped at lvl one..and i jus fled out..n i knocked him..n he was like:"ouch~"..n i was like :"i'm so so so sorryyyy...the lizard.."..n he said:"again?!?"...wad the **** ..last time saw him in the lift with the lizard beside him n i was like giving him this.."shit.there's a lizard beside yuu" look..n he kicked the lizard out of the lifttt..he actually kicked it back to his housee..-coz the lift stops in our unit..not at the corridor or wad.but right inside the unit..so.he's kicking the lizard back to his housee..lol.n this time.he didn't help me at all..dam him..*off to hell he goes..then i when i was abt to run to the bus stop..the bus jus went off..omg..wad a pleasant day ain't that....shit him..for not kicking the lizardd..n shit the bus driver for driving so fast..n shit the security guardss...for asking if i was a visitor..n wasted all my time..o ya..the first trip to the bus stop i saw this stupid security guard n he asked me with his cc voice:"excuse me girl..are u a visitor?" n i was like :"no"..but that dam security guard was like not believing me n asking me wad unit i stayed in...lol..i almost screamed at himm..the last sentence he said to me was:"why didn't i see u before?">..n i said:"that's because u r newwwww..."..i bet he jus came or something..coz i nvr see him before also..dam him..wad a pleasant day..then was at the eeeesprit to buy pants with my mom..she wants to buy some long long boot cut white pantss...n i was standing there whole day to look at all the clothes she tried...n of course.give commentsss..then she finally bought the white pants..ONLY..after trying dunno how many tops n pantss..she passed that gene to meee..lol.last time went out with twin also tried dunno how many tops n bottoms n finally bought something...she bought this shirt that has the word-epsrit 68 in front..all the esprit shirts are the same lahh..n she said i can wear it..so i was like: ok lohhhh...but that shirt quite nice actually..the cutting is very nice..n then..we proceeded to the tangs that food mall...n we ate n ate n ate..finally..we decided to go home..it was only 1 then n it was raining cows n bulls....we took a taxi home....n thats the end..n now..it reminds me that we didnt go forever21..lol..was looking so forward to going orchard jus to go that shop..then i actually forgot abt it..70% of my head is made up of my skulls n hair n the rest are my brains...cun rmb things properly todayyy..lol

2004-11-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

2004-11-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

[*after listening to so much songs on the radio, i still think that ocean avenue is the best.i love it man.]

<<*ocean avenue>>

There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

2004-11-12T12:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm..me back..long time nvr update..wad shall i tok abt this time?.my new job.roller blade coach..its quite a boring n tough job u noe..u gotta pack up all the guards everyday..n carry big big big baskets filled with guards n guards n guardss..sara ann is strong man..actually all the girls there were dam strong..they can manage one big basket by themself..they carry until like so easy like tat..so everytime they start carrying stuff..i will stand there do nothing n stare at them work..i cun even carry one side properly..its dam heavy..especially the wrist guardss..i almost died when i was carryin the whole big basket of it..100 wrist guards in one basket..wad the hell..i nearly died..lol.k.shall say something interesting abt my job..we went xing hua a few days ago to teach. n there was this girl who actually brought a hamster n put it into her pocket before she go for our lesson...n then she fell down while skating.n the hamster jus drop out..hey.its a real life hamster k.n most unfortunately..somebody's skates went over the hamster..n it was squashed to death..omg..isnt it disgusting..u must have thought the hamster died instantly..but it didn't..sarah even held it in her hands when it died..she said she saw the hamster *twitching* its nose..pooooor hamsterrrr..n on wed..i got to know this little girl who's dam sweet..she's very cute n prettyyy..haha.n she didnt know how to skate..so i was supposed to coach her..n then after the lesson, she wanted my mail add n we start toking a lot.haha.then in the afternoon lesson..she came with a cup of milo..i was suffering frm dehydration then n she let me drank..she asked me if i want to..omg.isnt that sweet..she's such a sweet babe..i love her man..then i felt much better..actually i before i felt thirsty i went to drink water frm my water bottle..but i realised what i need wasnt water..was some cold cold ice..lol.she saved my life..haha.hmm.yesterday i broke my record by going out with my cousin frm 3 to 10..haha..out for 7 hrs..was actually going out with twin one..then my mom forced me to go out with her..n then my aunt called my mom to ask her if she wants to go play majong..n she asked my couz to go shopping with me.lol..and we went around the whole bugis n i only bought a bottle of nail polish..lol..i know how to waste time..really..lol.later going with twin n anne to watch the forgotten..i wanted to watch it quite sometime ago i think..lol.shall go off now.bye

2004-10-31T13:03:00.000+08:00

time really fliess...i've spent quater of my teenhood with 2e8 for 2 years already..and really..seriously.i will misss all of them..yupz..next year we're gonna go diff class..ain't that sad?..within the 2 years...n next year du lao shi wontt be here again..there were too much things happening..and now..everything's over..2e8 04' will be memories forever..and 2e8 was also the class champion in the first semester..haha..we got a big trophy..and in the end.within a month we were supposed to return it to the sch..how much i hope we can keep it longer..n everytime during sci lessons..especially lab lessons..yasmin n i wil be caught for tokin...haha..n in class..yeidi will pass notes to pek..while ah soh kicks my chair n i will go"aiyo wad la"...i was cleaning my chair on the last day of sch n realised how big ah soh's foot is..can see all the foot prints on the back of the chair..haha..i will definately rmb 2e8 2004 forever n ever..and definately not to forget ms yeooo..who's actually quite nice but really annoying..yeahh

2004-10-28T16:31:00.000+08:00

hahaha....today is such a stupid dayyy...spent the whole day taking picss during the journey to the science centree..haha.the omni theatre was scaryy..i will nvr go there by myselff..its too scaryyy..lol..wadever..hmm..scroll down the tag board to see my photo album..i am updating all the picss

2004-10-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

hahahhaha...ah sohh..stop asking me to update la..i very lazy mann..anyway..i'm getting very much fatterr..haha.been lazing around the living room for like 24 hrs aday...haha..okok..wad happened today?..i shall tell u in great detail..its really stupid..coz i suggested to watch the grudge..and then i was screaming like hell when i watched it..its dumb and scary ok..its abt the ju-on story la..but then this time got ang morhh..its abt this woman who is a exchange student frm united states..she went to japan and volunteer to be a nurse at the care centre..so one day she was asked to take care of this old ang morr woman who is in great shock..coz when she moved in she saw the mother ghost..which then kill all her kids..so she was dam shocked but no one knew abt it..that house is haunted mahh..yeah.so she felt that the house was odd the moment she stepped in...and then she saw all the ghost lohh..and her bf was killed by the mother ghost also...there was this part that ah soh was grabbing my hand..no.my wwrist,..at the main blood vessel part..and i was like screaming..ok.actuallly at every part i was screaming like hell..i'm not gonna watch this stupid show anymore..haha..its freaky.and the sound is dam louddd..haha..and then somemore the cinema is dam emptyyy..so its really scaryy..and wooo schuaann is madd u noeee...she not scared at all you noe..haha..and ya..in the morning ahh..we supposed to go east coast park to cycle maahh..then this stupid woo schuaann keep sleeping..we keep calling her and she nvr pick up the phone..and so we had to cancel it..stupid twinn..haha..okok..so we have come to a conclusion..woo schuaann is a 100% sloucherr..she's not human..she not scared at all..and ya..stupid ah sohh..dam irritating..her jacket got a cap mahh...and then she wear the jacket the other way round..and she covered her face with that..then so scary u noe..its in the cinema..then so darkk..then stil got the creepy music playing..stupid ahh sohh....ahhhhhhhhhhh..haha..kk..wil update moreee..anyway.i am gonna be a rolerblade coach..$6 per hour..not bad right..hee..kk..go watch ren wo aou you le..the swimming show is so dam nice!!..bueess

2004-10-19T16:28:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha...laugh laugh..EXAMS FINALLY OVERRRRRRRR(its already over for not sure number of daysss)<-accoring to bamm...kk..acording to keyi..her life sucks...she is praying hard that she will not fail her maths!! Yes, fail. Nooooo!! ARRRGGGGG..hhahaha..

2004-09-19T17:08:00.000+08:00

o mann..life sucksss....2 more weeks to streaming...miss yeo is gonna tok n tok non stop againn..hhmm..life really suckss..i jus cun count how many idiotic stupid things happen recentlyyy..firstlyyy...my stupid noseee..keep bleeding like a tapp..ever since that incicdent happeneddd..n iap shits..though its overr..hee.and moree..like tmrr..got stupid eng compree..sucks laa..n then still got history presentation...sucks la..n our lit presentation wasn;t good either...that part i supposed to dy..then pek came n say::ah loke dun dy that part right...twinn aka xuan xuan supposed to come after pek to say ah loke dun die one..then i forgot abt twinn's part and i was like standing upp..i supposed to dy one lohh..then i revive again..that's dumbbb..then the front ppl were laughing at me..that was dumb..i think i gonna fail mmy lit already.sucksss..n somore kena scolded by ppl tt i m bsbody..hahaha..forget it mann..who caresss..it's his business..dun think he really understands wad his friend toking abttt.*no offense ya*...haha..now at twinn's houseee...so funny k..he father called her xuan xuan!!!!!!!...HAHAHAHHAHAAA...and everyone is sick todayy..me kena nose bleed for 2 times..cheeri kena sore throat..cun tok..yeahh..finally she cun tok..and twinn feels that she got stomach flu again..n jiemei having crampsss..haha...poor girlsss...kk..this coming month is gonna suck like hell man..hhaaa..got streaming..gosshh..jus imagine after examss..i'm gonna go every shopping centre in singapore!!!..haha..i long time nvr go far east n also plaza s...my life's dumbb..cun wait for exams to b overr..but i havent study yett...haa..tts stupidd...so i really hope time stopss..ya..it will..if i dy right noww..feel like dyinggg..HELPPP!!!..hahhaa

2004-09-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

hhahaahhaaa...feeling childish again......i wanna watch doremon....i feeel like sittin on yeidi's car again..then can watch le..last time watch halfway then so fast reach ur house..hmmm..exams around the corner..mss yeeoo is trying to tell everyone there is only 3 weeks left to end of yearrr..hmm..really looking forward to after exams...coz I AM GONNA LEARN DRUMS!!...N MY DAD ALLOWS ME TO LEARN TEKWANDO!!!...FINALLYYYYY!!!..yuz..bbbbiiiggggggg newsss..my dad allows me to learn tekwando...finally..my mom has been opposing it,..then now my dad agreeees..hehehhehe...happy happy happy..and i m gonna learn drums with twinn..hehe..drumssss..have been wantin to learn it since i was in p6....but that's still after exams wad..stupid..still got the stupid exams cumin up..3 weeks time..i have been having fun slacking throughout the whole year..haha..then now only 3 weeks left for me to PULL UP MY TKGS SOCKS.wonder if i will get kick out of tkgssss.haish..hopefully not..n today..i got a baddd headach..k..this is how my headach is like...my head is like a sphere...cut into halfff..right side of my head is fine..butttt..the left side is hurting like hellll!!..something's wrong..mayb a tumour i growing there...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...pls..i dun wan a tumourrrrr..helppp..kk..jus say somethin abt wad happened today n i wil jus go off..enrichment lesson..elain nvr come..so we jus go library n get some air con..everyone was playing kook n anne's tamagotchi...i call it chicken la..coz its the stupid egg with a stupid retarded chicken..costs 29.95..but kook n anne bought it for 18 coz lizzy sold to them,..lol..then i was trying to make the chicken jumpp..n it jus couldn't jump..stupid..gave up playing it..n pek was sitting beside me looking at me trying to make that stupid chicken jump..and pek keep laughing n laughing...lol..dunno la..still havinng the bloody freaking headach..then ringg..sch ends..but i still got string..tts why i m staying in here...argg..kk..hafta go off leee..

2004-09-03T17:48:00.000+08:00

haha..now adays really horrible...especially when it comes to end of term.got so many cas...and they start telling you things abt progress report...sucks man..well..today..got nth special happen la..really..so boring..and actually my mom banned me frm using com one..dunno why all of a sudden she let me play..haha.who cares la..can use com very happy le..haha..k.i feeel real childish today..feel like eating some sweets and ice cream.jus now i saw this very cute and cuddly eurasian kid..he's sooooo CUTE!!!..i regret so much..jus now nvr hug him..:'(...*weeps*..he's soo cute..big round eyes..so cute you noe..feel like squeezin his face..haha..kk..stop all these things abt eurasian kids..they all look so good..n yet the same..ha..went to parkway with twin n pek..and pek kkeep thinking abt kean yung..pek..its too obvious tt u r tinking of him.yeah..n on the way back home..saw this unresistable guy..on 158..haha..but too bad he looks very proud..n i rmb saw this acs guy..looks soo cute..but he puts his bagg soo bloody high..*pukes*..n his socks hhhiiiggghhh!!..godd..puke man.cheeri ..told you before right..haha.yaaaa..something sooo SPECIAL happened... there is this manjusri girl sitting on 158..with her skirtss puling higher and higher..jus coz there are few victorians sitting near her..and she gets so excited..n starts pulling her skirts higher n higher..so disgusting..n the victorians got very excited too i think..they were like laughing n laughing..n then one of them voice super loud and he say:oi..eric.she suits ur taste man.."..then i saw the manjursri girl smiling man!!..how bitchy can she be?..and worse stuff came..she slowly OPEN her legs!!!..my goddddd..its was soo disgusting..i think the guys were scared off or something..then one of them was like: i think we better go..before she gets more hornyyy..maan..the guy's skin very thick leh.haha..then they all went to the backseat...where i was sitting..and they were all like staring at me..then the guys burst into laughter..i dun get wad the hell is happening also..hahaha..so stupid..then i think the manjursri girl was kinda sad..then at this stop..at the geylang street there mah..then got a few ugly old man board the bus..then they look at her legs..n she immediately pull down her skirts...haha..so stupid..ya..then the victorians dunno laughing at wad..one of them will always all of a sudden stop toking and turn to look at me..and they will laugh..they crazy la..or they are saying some bad things abt the innocent me..so bad..then they continue doing this until at the dunman high tt stop there..got some nerds frm dunman high boardded the bus la..and they saw these bunch of stupid guys laughing n laughing..and one dhs guy was giving me this expression like ::wad the hell r they laughing at..sia ah...hahahahaha..i was laughing at him..n all of a sudden the back seat was full of laughter...so mad n stupid..hahahahahah...laugh all they want la..off to hell they go..man..hate them..made me feel like wanting to punch them..a pile of morons eating shit..haha..me so valgual.who cares..off to hell they go..n not to forget...justine rocks forever,,

2004-08-29T16:33:00.000+08:00

okok..me now at wooo schuaann's house..again..last week was so fun..this week kinda turn out to b a lil boring..coz cheeri they all nvr bring instruments..haha..today is stupid..i went to the temple with my mom..at bright hill road there..and then there were so many ppl there that even the police came..and then when at the entrance there..we were thinking of going home la.coz got too many ppl..so mom tried to turn the car around..and then the police say no turning here..so we drove all the way infront where got lots n lots of tarrace houses....and the police say we can go infront and turn and turn.duno wad he say la..then when we turn..we realised that there is no way out there..and we keep turnin n turnin n turnin..and we keep seeing the policeman..and ask him again..then he became very frustrated n took out a pen...drew on his palm..trying to tell us how to get out of there...and he was like::i tell u ah..u go this way..then turn here..den u will see this u turn.and u turn here and then walk straight and u will get out of this place..so my mom was like..ok..and when we turn at the u turn there..there was no way out..so my mom was like::ta ma de..chi da bian..for the first time my mom said that!!.yeah!!...then next time i say that she cun scold me already..coz even she also got say,..hahahahahhha..kk..then i supposed to meet twin at bugis n then go her house..then my mom dropped me at rochor market there n i walked all the way to parco..haha,,then we went to edge..n at the shop twin bought the puapo.. bought all the presents for teachers n rachel ong n vanessa..haha...kk.now twin n me n ang n cheeri are going down to play table tennis..see ya guys!!..soo looking forward to teacher's day..but i hate the chinese ying yong wen n eng nespaper writing on mon!!...down to eng n chi!!..argg.

2004-08-28T13:27:00.000+08:00

haha..just came back from chinese oral..it was total SHIT man..really shit..i got duttee as examiner..it was total shit..she was like keep smiling at me..and i smiled back at her la..i jus feel that she was like all of a sudden very nice today..dun have the disgusting smile that hides the evil shit feeling..haish.the oral was really horrible..i read this stupid word wrongly..then i was like shit..and i jus dunno why i repeat that part.so stupid..kk..i noe i m gonna fail that stupid oral shit..and it is really shit shit shit!!..i m gonna fail man..and then when gonna say abt the newspaper thingy..i was like dunno wad i say also..n she keeps smiling..i just dunno why..and her smile just kills my brain cells..i cun think of wad i wanna say ltr.haha..hmm..shall say something abt going to parkway..hey.its ridiculous k..we go there at 7.30 early in the morning just to listen to the stupid crappy listening compre..and the person sitting beside me keep sneezing..so noisy..but she very cham also la.then when listening finished. me, bam, je, twin, jiemei, siying, zhuazhua, gen went to parkway to eat.then something wrong with bam today..she keep saying things abt burning fats..and we walked all the way frm the sch to parkway.we walk until outside the tkps then realised that we shld have walked by the tkgss way..haha..we turned one whole big round..and then gen, zhuazhua n siyingtook a bus there..n me n others just walk la n then twin n mana was like very tired..dun wanna walk then go take bus.haha.so only left me, bam, je..n we walked all the way to parkway..it was so deserted.haha.then at mc's there we saw this woman who was like talking n talking..she got some eggs in her mouth..n everything just fly out of tt mouth..it was ooo disgusting..hhaha..then we went back to the sch for oral..kk..me now listening to radio..yeah!!..i like this song!!its UNIVERSAL PRAYER by TIZIANO FERRO JAMELIA..ah!!..love this song.i like the background..and today is also a sad day..cheer up k my jiemei..things will get better..i will b praying for ya..yeah..and ya..addition to wadever i update yesterday abt the fund raising thingy..there is this whole bunch of ppl..half girls half boys..like pri sch lining up like that,,and the guys were like ignoring us...i didnt bother to ask them anyway..then one of the girls was like.."why don't we donate some money??,.the pen is cute anyway.."..then u noe wad the ugliest guy in the whole gang say.."dun want la..that chick nvr ask me to donate."..i feel like punching him..u call me chick??..eat shit la you!!..i m not a chicken!!..u sick in the brain full of chicken shit..wadveer..u better not let me see u again..if not i will strangle u to death..n stuff all the chicken shit into ur mouth..

2004-08-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

haha..today is such a interesting day..coz i went to sell some novelty pen that cost $2 for the NKF children...then its like everyone is ignoring me...until i saw few tkgians...and i asked them..they quite nice la.each bought one.n then saw so many ppl doing the same thing as me n syafiqah..haha..then i managed to sell 14..n syfiqah didnt really sell a lot.and she bought a few for herself.hmm..saw so many st' anthony canossian..they all very bitchy..its like they all specially go to the guys..n i didnt see any guys that she asked buying it..lol..despo..and saw one of them trying to pull her skirt higher..o cmon..wads the use of that??..toot la she..me now listening to slide by side.hmm..its quite nice..gives me a feeling of being on the beach...haha..gtg anyway.byee

2004-08-22T16:26:00.000+08:00

all right..me now at wu schuan's house...supposed to do history project.which is to interview her grandfather...coz he went through world war 2..and her ah gong is now reading newspaper..then now cheeri brought her trombone..and mana brought her flute to play...and here they are playing their band song...and i m now sitting here updating my blog..haha.and gen's blog is so nice..can hear so many songs..haha.on the way to wu schuan's house..saw this very cute guy..but he is surrounded by so many gays..his friends all look either like metrosexuals or gays..hhaha..i m sittin here...wondering when they will start..o ya..just now was sooo funny..i was trying out cheeri's trombone..and then she taught me how to play the cow's sound..and she put the slide until very low..and it looked like she is not holding it..when i tried..i let go the slide..and the whole slide just dropped out..the shocked cheerrrii was screaming into my ears.haa...then when i try to blow..it really sound like some sounds...ya..sound's like cheeri farting..haha..and man..mana is now trying it out.except that the sound didnt really sound like cheeri's farting...erm..sounds like...KOOK's farting..haha..me now copying justin..song of the day..:VINDICATED::...[[[so let me slip away..so let me slip away..so let me slip away..]]]..this is the nice part..haha..and fly away is sooo nice..haha..QI LI XIANG n JAY CHOU..rocks!!..arhggg..haha..me shall sit here..waiting for twin's grandpa to stop reading n cheeri they all to stop farting.n start..haha..jk..

2004-08-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

k..down to the brothers part..haha..today..shall say something abt wad happened at parkwayayayay..its like we are going there to have lunch then go home.on the bus..mana n i saw this cute guy..eat lunch..then it rained..so pek,jiemei,twin n meee just gotta walk around..coz only twin got the umbrella n it was raining cows n pigs..then after walking around at pp..the cows n pigs stopped falling..and we went home..on the way to the bus stop..we saw this very cute umbrella...flyin in the sky..dancing gracefully..haha...pek found it first.n she was like"umbrelaa!!"n pointed in the north-west direction (i also dunno la)..then we looked over there..n saw the umbrella flying higher n higher up into the sky..haha..then everyone was laughin..and all of a sudden the umbrella just landed in front of us n saw this woman with a child n a trolley...she was like walking towards the umbrella direction..so we thought it was hers n went to help her take la..then she point to another person..trying to tell me that it was that person's umbrella..then that girl turned out to be stephanie..haha..laugh until we die man..so funny.

2004-08-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

ahh...why is it tt my bro is always so annoying..the small one always so noisy..firstly hack my friendster acc..then now the big one is like trying to make me stop using the com..what has the world come tooooooo!!!..ahhh..man..why did i ever have a bro like this..i rather have one like twin's...much better than mine k..so..the morale of this story is tt having a bro is not a good thing..for me la..but if u have a nice bro..cherish him..help!!..i wanna kill them!!,,they are soooo noisyyyyyy!!..arrrrggrgrgr.

2004-08-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

ehem...haha..long time nvr update..and quite a number of cute things happen..firstly..let's tok abt somehing biiiggg...haha...yesterday..got legacy..how exciting..can see miss yeeooo..ehem..so then..as usuall..she pull her trolley bag..come into the class..me reading teenage..then she start toking rubbish..i also dunno la..and then got this crap thing abt wad cake..then like how many sprinkles of happiness..how many teaspoon of indian chi malay angmohs..some racial harmony thing..i was like reading n reading...n dear twin was like dunno how to write..she thinking n planning the future for her n qing mah..n then..the band ppl need to start dressing up..n stupid miis yeeoo jus wan the lesson to carry on..she dun care abt the band ppl..and its like she keep forcin the band ppl to finish presenting the thing first then can go n start dressing up..haha..then i was presenting with twin mah..and deaf stupid misss yeeeooo says tt i m too soft n she wants me to use her mic!!..haha..i was laughing like hell..cannot even tok man..laugh until my stomach shrink..haah.. erm..then let's tok abt tt day when i read the chinese passage...that hun zhuo part..haha.so fun..i was like trying to make myself sound like a father...n it might jus have sounded like some pervert or something..everyone was laughing..especially tang ling..she was #$% i also dunno wad she toking..haha..then recently realised tt my bro hacked my friendster acc...and added two or threee ppl i think..haha..so stupid,.its like suddenly got ppl add me for msn...i thought wad..my popularity go so far ah..lol.ha.kidding la..and my history sucks like hell..history sucks..

2004-08-10T02:28:00.000+08:00

hai ya..now adays really boring u noe..okok..shall tok abt tt day when me, mana ,twin went to watch the village...it was soo stupid..coz only both of us screamin in the theatre..haha..when the show ends everyone was like taking a look at us bfore they leave...so pai seh..haha.and then we went heeren..and at the somerset mrt there..mana saw her favourite senior..and she shouted her name..budden too bad she nvr hear..only her friends heard and they were looking at her..then mana start to become very angry..and keeepp say::i really very angry u noe..she my fav senior and now she nvr seee meeeeee..i really very saddd..she keep repeatin until i wanna tell her shutup already..okok..then now..on the way back home...we rushed to the mrt coz mana need to go home earlier...and then when we reached the very inside there...saw the train..the door was like abt to close..and mana was e first to go in and she pull me n i pull twin..lol..then the door close la and twin almost got her bag stucked..okok..then wads the most interesting part is that when the door close..there were this two acs guys..got seperated coz of the door..one of them was in the train and the other one outside la..and the one outside was like givin this sparstic smile and k..thisis how he loooks like::super small eyes...and then a lil fat..something like william hung like tt...wore braces..and when he smiles..he looked a lil like william hung..but too bad his teeth is not like his..and then we realised tt the acs guy in the train was sooo cute...lol..

2004-07-29T18:30:00.000+08:00

　　《七里香》

词：方文山曲：周杰伦

窗外的麻雀在电线杆上多嘴
你说这一句很有夏天的感觉
手中的铅笔在纸上来来回回
我用几行字形容你是我的谁

秋刀鱼的滋味猫跟你都想了解
初恋的香味就这样被我们寻回
那温暖的阳光像刚摘的鲜艳草莓
你说你舍不得吃掉这一种感觉

雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水
院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠
几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却
你出现在我诗的每一页

雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水
窗台蝴蝶像诗里纷飞的美丽章节
我接着写把永远爱你写进诗的结尾
你是我唯一想要的了解

那饱满的稻穗幸福了这个季节
而你的脸颊像田里熟透的蕃茄
你突然对我说七里香的名字很美
我此刻却只想亲吻你倔强的嘴

2004-07-24T17:04:00.000+08:00

如果有一天，世界末日即将来临，我会第一时间出现在你的身边，紧握着你温柔的手。然后轻轻的在您的耳边对你说：“哈哈！你死定了！”。

2004-07-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

[[graduation]]

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change,
Keep on thinking things will always be the same.
But when we leave this year we won't be comming back,
no more hanging out cuz were on a different track
and if you, got something that ya need to say,
you better say it right now cuz you dont have another day

Cuz we're moving on and we cant slow down
these memories are playing like a film without sound
and I keep thinking of that night in June,
I didnt know much of love but it came too soon.
And there was me and you and we got real blue,
stay at home talking on the telephone, with me, we'd
get so excited and we'd get so scared,
laughing at ourselfs thinking lifes not fair...
And this is how it feels...

CHORUS
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever...

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money,
when we look back now will that joke still be funny?,
will we still remember everything we learned in schoool,
still be trying to break every single rule?
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that its not goodbye,
Keep on thinkin its a time to fly,
And this is how it feels...

CHORUS

la, la, la, la... yeah, yeah ... la, la, la, la..
We will still be
Friends Forever ..

2004-07-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

argg...today..i feel sick..i keep sneezing and my nose is blocked...argg..then..today got the prefect in-wadever thing..then got this dunno wad sch guy sitting in front of me..he was sooo bloody tall...i cun see thing. without tilting my head,...pooor me..then the other guy sitting beside him was worse man...he was sweating like he is raining....muakakkaa..i laugh until like siao...coz his sweat keep droping..and its kinda grosss. haha.....guess wad...i knew it...the guys who swere bloody tall and keep blocking me were from RI...haha....the socks so high,,like stockings like tt...man.....and someone from 2/9 said that she know the guys...and that they were same age as us...wow man...cun believe it...14 yrs old and so blooody talll....

2004-07-16T18:37:00.000+08:00

hmm..long time no update liaox..got lots n lots to say..hehex...hmm..lets tok abt yesterday..the kinda funniest day ever..lol...yesterday..after sch..we wanna do mep project wad..then half way...lalapook n heidi went to the toilet..dunno do wad...meanwhile..mee was playing my fav icy tower on the classroom com..then...lalascchhuan said she wanna go find lalapook..we hide her bag and went to find them at the 4th floor toilet..and we found them 2 hiding in this cubical...and lalascchhuan was like:: i am gonna kill them if they dun come out...they jus wanna hide there..for fun i guess...then lalascchhuan was fustrated..she stepped on the toilet bowl in the cubical beside the one lalapook n heidi is in..she wanna see if they were inside..and lalapook go and laugh...and lalascchuan threw the toilet roll into their cubical...and they threw back..how fun..like some lame games for sparstic ppl*infact, it is*..i was jus standing there helping lalascchuan carry her bag..and that is how it looked like from my point of view....then lalascchhuan found that the wall seperatin the 2 cubicals were ssoooo dirty..and lalascchhuan go and use the toilet paper and clean it...then throw it to lalapook...haha..it was so funny..and lalapook keeep screaming..hahah...i laugh until my stomach was aching..hehex..then lalascchuuaan think that throwing toilet paper not enough..she go n squirt water...muakakakkaka..i laugh until my teeth drop out..haha...then everything ended.....lalapook n heidi still refuse to come out....so we said tt lalapook's bag is somewhere in the sch..and we pretended that we went..haha..then we went out of the sch and lalascchuan treated me to ice cream..hehe..thanks twin!..and at the bus stop...we decided to go back..if not ltr lalapook bag gone how..haha..then we went back..took her bag and went back to that toilet to look for them...then lalapook n heidi were cleaning the toilet..haha...coz lalascchuan go n squirt water and the toilet paper were all wet...i know its grosssss.....haha....

2004-07-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

till the day we meet again.

we are not gonna forget the moments..

that moment that u gave me ur hand..

the moment u talked to me...

the moment u left me...

the moment that breaks my heart so much..

the moment i knew you will never turn back again..

2004-06-29T15:25:00.000+08:00

haha..testin..just tryin out if i can change the time..hah

2004-06-24T16:28:00.000+08:00

***雪***

有一种花，开在寒冷的高山上，在它战放最美丽的时候，却遇到了寒冬，来不及凋谢，就被冰雪包围住，冻结了起来，那一刹那的美丽变成了永恒，它就叫做雪天使。。

2004-06-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

lol..today is sucha nice day..coz my birthday is getting closer and closer..haha..and ppl..who r going out on my b'day...wad day do u prefer?...this coming sun or the sunday on the first week of sch??..pls tag my board or msg meee..thanks.

2004-06-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

muakakka...guess wad...my birthday's comingggggg!!!.arr..excited ppl?!?.ok..let me tell ya when is it..its on the 29th june..and its on a tues!!!..ahaha..luckily dun have viola on that day..dun wanna see that idiotic lau liu..hhaa..and its only 12 more days!!!..muakaka..and we gonna plan to go out with frenzys in the same week..on sun..haha..its gonna be fun baby..gonna take neprints..yuppy..haha..if anyone wanna join..dun need to ask me..just tell me..and we gonna have a nice time partying baby!!

2004-06-12T15:32:00.000+08:00

hey babes..long time no update..yup..er..now adays like nth much to say leh..o ya..i just started playing gunbund....quite fun but i always kana shot dead by some idiots..haha..holidays..but a lil boring la..just that no need to study for sometime only..haha...o ya..just went back to sch for yeo again...and she said there was a test but she didnt give...bet she forgot/..haha..okok..will update when i can..byeee.

2004-06-09T12:54:00.000+08:00

o yahh...I HAVE THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS QING!!!...wu schhuuuaaan...qing ar...now very easy to rmb qing's birthday already right??..haha..

2004-06-09T12:40:00.000+08:00

okok..life kinda sucks..lalla...just went to sch yesterday and saw that retarded yeo ling seem..haha...and stupid her say that tmr got wad test...dunno wad also.....and stupid shit..i cun change my template..stupid diaryland so blardy hell irritating one lor....whenever i click on the template thingy they will give u one whole chunk of shit which i dun wanna read...haish..wadever la..and yesteray..we went to parkway after the stupid yeo thingy..we went b.k for breakfast..then saw this bunch of st' pat guys sitting outside b.k..one of them looked not as bad la...but too bad he was smoking...just imagine that...smoking in sch uniform!!..haha...we were kinda shocked..and mana went crazy when she saw the st'pat guys...she keep mixing the milk powder and tea or wadever....gone crazy..at first when i touched her forehead..it was sooooo hot..then when i n kooook touched her forhead again..it was soo blardy cold..haha...reallly gone crazy..then when we were going to go home that time..on the bus..i saw this super handsome victoria guy...guess wad..he was looking at me!!.arg..but then i got off the bus earlier than him..very sad man..haha..lala..and then when i went on msn..bam told me that they saw some kinda lunatic on the bus,...he was bubbering and banging his head against the window...and he was like cursing or something...eeeek..sounds scary..but i think the dot dot that i saw with koook was quite scary too..that doty dot was a femine guy who wears woman's clothes/..saw him at the mrt station...he wears a .spaghetti strip dress...the dress quite short la..and he was trying hard to give this innocent look...and his lipstick colour was like wad...very very pink man..and his arms were muscula...and he had this ugly rotting looking scrunchie dangling at the tip of his hair...i really feel like puking...gosh..and he really gave me that feeling of some pervert...but see this...if he dress like a girl..then he maybe can go girls toilet mah...and in the mrt..he was standing beside me..and at that point of time...i almost puke..really....okok..if i see this sort of guys who goes around wearing s.s dress..i will tell more abt him...

2004-06-05T14:09:00.000+08:00

lala...haha..my blog is nice right?..lala..okok...hmm..lets talk abt wad happened on bam's birthday::okok..here we go::::: in the morning...i woke up and realised that it was 10.30..lala..then i brushed my teeth..and had my breakfast...then when i look at the clock and realised that it was already 11.00..haha..mummy forced me to finish the porrige...okok..then i rushed out of the house and went to orchard to meet up with bam they all...then we went around far east plaza and we went to take neoprints...the neoprint machine was sooo idiotic!!..u noe the machine got 2 cameras right..then they anyhow arrange which camera to shoot..and we end up squating and stand and squating....haha..then we got all our legs shot in one of the pictures..haha..then we bought one shirt for bam:its PINK..haha..but its nice on her..haha..and i am now gonna work on my tag-board..coz i use the same html code for the tag board and then in the end all the messages gone..lalal...kk..will update another time...bleah